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The Roam
everyone I meet tells me they expect to be
farther along in life by the time that they're me
& i've never been concerned about he perfect match, no
little flower
how do you find the strength to grow?
well i don't know, but it seems like a long way to go
breakthrough, breakthrough the ground
on your way, on your way to the clouds
there's a hole in my soul
taking control & i need you
there's a tear in my heart
taking me apart & i need you
i need you, little flower
where does your mind go when it wanders?
does the sun disappoint you when it sleeps?
& how do, how do you know
there's a life to come back to
after the snow melts down?
there's a hole in my soul
taking control & i need you
there's a tear in my heart
taking me apart & i need you,
i need you, little flower
little flower
who do you think of when you feel love?
does it swallow you whole to spread your arms?
and when do, when do you fall
when you stand so tall in the face of it all?
there's a hole in my soul
taking control & i need you
there's a tear in my heart
taking me apart & i need you
i need you, little flower.
(in loving memory of R.A.S. <3)
Alone Without You
what you know
to me, is a mystery
you stay just close enough to me
what you give
is what you choose to show
you live your life in a parallel world
but i'm still alone without you
the days pass slower than molasses
but my time with you only comes in flashes
if i say i want your love, i deny myself the pride i need to stay
so for now i'll just hold you, before you walk away
but i'm still alone without you
i'm still alone without you
every night i sleep alone
& each morning that i wake
is it really how much
how much it's gonna take
we both want more of something & we're never gonna get it
because some things rarely can stay precious
but i'm still alone without you
Danger, Danger
danger, danger in these streets
have you had enough to eat
'cause the demon you're creating
don't give it cause for waiting to be set free
danger, danger follow me
the town is empty save your company
& the miles that treat & the blood that bleeds
all once safe is now a mystery
danger, danger hear my plea
the winds are cold with prophecy
'cause the demon you're creating
will never be sated by me
Giving Up The Gun
i'm so confused
everybody keeps moving on
& i'm sitting here with a drink in one hand
& the other shaped like a gun
i put it to my temple & pull the invisible lever
& it all for a moment goes in one ear & out the other
but that's only a gesture, a "make pretend" if you will
just stickin' it to the man in the sky, god or air
who can ever tell?
& it's hard to be honest, even when there's a gun to your head
when it don't make a difference if you're living & breathing or dead
so no, i ain't got nothing, nothing to say
& i'm giving more and more every day
so when it comes to leaving or staying,
i'm giving up the gun
you're so confused
everything keeps going on
but you're still running from the cold barrel of your own invisible gun
& you can't shake the feeling that it's all too late and you can't change
when you're looking back at yourself & you're all rearranged
so no, i ain't got nothing, nothing to say
& i'm giving more and more every day
so when it comes to leaving or staying,
i'm giving up the gun
but it's not that complex to never come to a conclusion
either in or out, naked or dressed, no illusions
& the real question here is whether or not you can deal
with a paradox between what you want & how you feel
so no, i ain't got nothing, nothing to say
& i'm giving more and more every day
so when it comes to leaving or staying,
i'm giving up the gun
Eyes
You’re always lost
Looking for home
Got your bags packed, and your eyes to the road
Always thinking that you should have known
How it all went wrong
Well, is that your way of praying?
A venue for loss, a way to seek saving?
And in any case, you’re without fault for saying
You knew it all along
You’ve got eyes in the back of your head, darlin’
I can see them from a mile away
You’ve got eyes in the back of your head baby
You’ve got eyes, you’ve got eyes
There’ll always be the next thing
Creeping around the corner
Well there’ll always be an outcome you can’t see
But you can’t be out of control
It won’t be enough for time to take its toll
And so you push push push until the whole story is told
Well what did you get from all that?
A constructed loneliness, a love based on facts?
And in any case you’re without fault for saying
You knew it all along
But you’ve got eyes in the back of your head darlin
I won’t come closer til you can see
You’ve got eyes in the back of your head baby
They’re too blind, much too blind for me
What if you never knew
Where you’d land when you fell?
Would you bother to leap at all?
Is it so hard to trust
Something you’re not sure of
Is it so hard to get back the faith you lost
So long ago?
You’ve got eyes in the back of your head darlin
No use hiding it’s plain to see
You’ve got eyes in the back of your head baby they’re too blind, much too blind for me
Tidal
if i was an astronaut
way out in space
to see us from the outside
just spinning in place
i take back everything i said
i'd let down my guard
i'd call you just to say hello
or sit silently in awe
everything would be in reach
so clear & so small
& i would see what they mean
to "step away from it all"
waves are crashing over me,
& the tide is rushing in
i try & try to take control
but i don't have it, never did
but i can't reach that kind of peace
i can't understand
the tidal that's consuming me
standing on dry land
everything is out of reach
so blurry & so fogged
my logic is soaking wet
my heart is water-logged
why's it so hard to breathe
from under the current
why's it so hard to breathe?
waves are crashing over me
& the tide is rushing in
i try & try to take control but i don't have it
if i was an astronaut
way out in space
to see us from the outside
just spinning in place
Goodnight, Marionette
Goodnight, Marionette all the lovers have fled
To continue in bed, the dance they’ve been dancing since the sun went down
& it feels now so final, as nights always do
To be walking alone, at a quarter past two
And your bones ache and moan from the strings that they pulled
But the show carries on til their bellies are full
Goodnight, Marionette take your money and leave
The debaucherous bouncers and the cunning heart thieves all thank you so very much
For all that you’ve done
For the minstrel who plays with the setting sun
But lies, oh lies don’t bring anything but down
But the truth, the truth is written in the sound
& sweet, bitter heart that you let sing out loud
Is the only living strength that you have to be proud
Goodnight Marionette all the lovers have fled
To continue in bed, the dance they’ve been dancing since the sun went down
& rest your head, rest your heart
But let it be known: goodnight, marionette, you’re not alone