CASSANDRA HOUSE

The Roam

 everyone I meet tells me they expect to be

farther along in life by the time that they're me

      & i've never been concerned about he perfect match, no

little flower

how do you find the strength to grow?

well i don't know, but it seems like a long way to go 

breakthrough, breakthrough the ground

on your way, on your way to the clouds

 

there's a hole in my soul

taking control & i need you

there's a tear in my heart

taking me apart & i need you

i need you, little flower

 

where does your mind go when it wanders?

does the sun disappoint you when it sleeps?

& how do, how do you know

there's a life to come back to

after the snow melts down?

 

there's a hole in my soul

taking control & i need you

there's a tear in my heart

taking me apart & i need you,

i need you, little flower

 

little flower

who do you think of when you feel love?

does it swallow you whole to spread your arms?

and when do, when do you fall

when you stand so tall in the face of it all?

 

there's a hole in my soul

taking control & i need you

there's a tear in my heart

taking me apart & i need you

i need you, little flower.

 

(in loving memory of R.A.S. <3)

 

Alone Without You

what you know

to me, is a mystery

you stay just close enough to me

what you give

is what you choose to show

you live your life in a parallel world

 

but i'm still alone without you

 

the days pass slower than molasses

but my time with you only comes in flashes

if i say i want your love, i deny myself the pride i need to stay

so for now i'll just hold you, before you walk away

 

but i'm still alone without you

i'm still alone without you

 

every night i sleep alone

& each morning that i wake

is it really how much

how much it's gonna take

we both want more of something & we're never gonna get it

because some things rarely can stay precious

 

but i'm still alone without you

 

Danger, Danger

 

danger, danger in these streets

have you had enough to eat

'cause the demon you're creating

don't give it cause for waiting to be set free

 

danger, danger follow me

the town is empty save your company

& the miles that treat & the blood that bleeds

all once safe is now a mystery

 

danger, danger hear my plea

the winds are cold with prophecy

'cause the demon you're creating

will never be sated by me

 

Giving Up The Gun

i'm so confused

everybody keeps moving on

& i'm sitting here with a drink in one hand

& the other shaped like a gun

i put it to my temple & pull the invisible lever

& it all for a moment goes in one ear & out the other

but that's only a gesture, a "make pretend" if you will

just stickin' it to the man in the sky, god or air

who can ever tell?

& it's hard to be honest, even when there's a gun to your head

when it don't make a difference if you're living & breathing or dead

 

so no, i ain't got nothing, nothing to say

& i'm giving more and more every day

so when it comes to leaving or staying,

i'm giving up the gun

 

you're so confused

everything keeps going on

but you're still running from the cold barrel of your own invisible gun

& you can't shake the feeling that it's all too late and you can't change

when you're looking back at yourself & you're all rearranged

 

so no, i ain't got nothing, nothing to say 

& i'm giving more and more every day 

so when it comes to leaving or staying, 

i'm giving up the gun

 

but it's not that complex to never come to a conclusion

either in or out, naked or dressed, no illusions

& the real question here is whether or not you can deal

with a paradox between what you want & how you feel

 

so no, i ain't got nothing, nothing to say 

& i'm giving more and more every day 

so when it comes to leaving or staying, 

i'm giving up the gun

 

 

Eyes

 

You’re always lost 

Looking for home 

Got your bags packed, and your eyes to the road 

Always thinking that you should have known 

How it all went wrong 

Well, is that your way of praying? 

A venue for loss, a way to seek saving? 

And in any case, you’re without fault for saying 

You knew it all along 

You’ve got eyes in the back of your head, darlin’ 

I can see them from a mile away 

You’ve got eyes in the back of your head baby 

You’ve got eyes, you’ve got eyes 

There’ll always be the next thing 

Creeping around the corner 

Well there’ll always be an outcome you can’t see 

But you can’t be out of control 

It won’t be enough for time to take its toll 

And so you push push push until the whole story is told 

Well what did you get from all that? 

A constructed loneliness, a love based on facts? 

And in any case you’re without fault for saying 

You knew it all along 

But you’ve got eyes in the back of your head darlin 

I won’t come closer til you can see 

You’ve got eyes in the back of your head baby 

They’re too blind, much too blind for me 

What if you never knew 

Where you’d land when you fell? 

Would you bother to leap at all? 

Is it so hard to trust 

Something you’re not sure of 

Is it so hard to get back the faith you lost 

So long ago? 

You’ve got eyes in the back of your head darlin 

No use hiding it’s plain to see 

You’ve got eyes in the back of your head baby they’re too blind, much too blind for me

 

Tidal

 if i was an astronaut

way out in space

to see us from the outside

just spinning in place

i take back everything i said

i'd let down my guard

i'd call you just to say hello

or sit silently in awe

everything would be in reach

so clear & so small

& i would see what they mean

to "step away from it all"

 

waves are crashing over me,

& the tide is rushing in

i try & try to take control

but i don't have it, never did

 

but i can't reach that kind of peace

i can't understand

the tidal that's consuming me

standing on dry land

everything is out of reach

so blurry & so fogged

my logic is soaking wet

my heart is water-logged

 

why's it so hard to breathe

from under the current

why's it so hard to breathe?

 

waves are crashing over me

& the tide is rushing in

i try & try to take control but i don't have it

 

if i was an astronaut

way out in space

to see us from the outside

just spinning in place

 

Goodnight, Marionette

Goodnight, Marionette all the lovers have fled 

To continue in bed, the dance they’ve been dancing since the sun went down 

& it feels now so final, as nights always do 

To be walking alone, at a quarter past two 

And your bones ache and moan from the strings that they pulled 

But the show carries on til their bellies are full 

Goodnight, Marionette take your money and leave 

The debaucherous bouncers and the cunning heart thieves all thank you so very much 

For all that you’ve done 

For the minstrel who plays with the setting sun 

But lies, oh lies don’t bring anything but down 

But the truth, the truth is written in the sound 

& sweet, bitter heart that you let sing out loud 

Is the only living strength that you have to be proud 

Goodnight Marionette all the lovers have fled 

To continue in bed, the dance they’ve been dancing since the sun went down 

& rest your head, rest your heart 

But let it be known: goodnight, marionette, you’re not alone